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Top Two 2012 Resolutions for Prisoner’s Wife/Partner

I know, I know, resolutions. Seriously, people still do this? Well, yes. The top two resolutions most people make revolve around losing weight and money. Why should we be any different?

Here are the top two resolutions for prisoners’ wives/partners:

  1. Lose weight in your relationship – If you had a difficult year, suffered a few disappointments, or learned something hurtful. Its’ time to lose weight. Extra goo in your union is unhealthy. If you are still together, then you owe it to each other to not only lose the weight, but not regain it. This extra poundage will not only weigh the relationship down but eventually will affect your relationship health. If you still harbor feelings about what happened in 2011, you have approximately two days to hit the gym to lose what’s ailing you and start the new year with a zero on the relationship scale.
  2. Balance your relationship checkbook – We have a tendency to give and give and give and sacrifice and sacrifice and sacrifice. We are emotionally and sometimes financially overdrawn, trying to pay the hefty price of this relationship. You cannot continue to pay from an account that’s overdrawn. Eventually, the account must be closed which means a mental breakdown in your future. Balance your relationship checkbook. Decide what works and what doesn’t. Where are the deposits? Where are the withdrawals? Shift credits and deposits accordingly until you have more than enough to give.

For example:
Overcompensating – Withdrawal.
Stressed over things you can’t control – Withdrawal.
Paying for things can’t afford it – Withdrawal.
Living within your means – Deposit.
Communicating effectively – Deposit.
Supportive friends and family- Deposit.

By losing weight and balancing our checkbooks, we resolve to have  better relationships which ultimately will spill over to us becoming better people (we hope).

 

Happy New Year!

 

What are some of your relationship resolutions?

 

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Five Words to a Better Prison Relationship

In August, on the Mrs. GE-6309 Time talk show, I spoke to Sheila Rule, Founder of Think Outside the Cell Foundation.

In this call, Sheila talked about an exercise she and her husband like to do to take the pulse of their relationship.

Each year, they write five words to describe the relationship. No long exhaustive letters, just five simple words.

The point of the exercise is to determine where a relationship needs works and if both parties see the relationship in the same way. Honesty is important. For instance, it does the relationship a disservice to describe it as the best thing since sliced bread when it has really been a difficult year.  Don’t focus on things you can’t change. Don’t make a list of prison words. Focus on the connection despite the location. This exercise will get you talking and if necessary, fix something before it goes off the rails.

Five words might be:

  1. Blissful
  2. Supportive
  3. Healthy
  4. Loving
  5. Surprising

Or

  1. Quicksand
  2. Frustrated
  3. Tense
  4. Unhappy
  5. Difficult

These two examples are very different pulses of a relationship. Now, if the above example is by two people in the same relationship, you see they will have a lot to talk about.

Is your relationship ready for 2012? Let’s find out. Assignment: You and your partner write five words that accurately describe the state of your relationship. Discuss.

Find the love story of Joseph and Sheila in Love Lives Here, Too: Real Life Stories about Prison Relationships and read how five words strengthen their marriage.

Listen to my chat with Sheila.

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Most Difficult Time of the Year for One Prisoner’s Wife

Two days before Christmas, before I showed up to my family’s holiday dinner without the invisible moniker of the last single daughter, two days before we announced our engagement, I witnessed my fiancé’s arrest. In those two days, I learned my fiancé wasn’t coming home anytime soon. Yet, Christmas came in spite of it. Though I didn’t know it at the time, I was a prisoner’s wife walking. Unlike the wrapped holiday gifts under my tree, no amount of Scotch tape would hold together the pieces of my life.  Tears flowed, until finally it was a silent night.

The timing of my now husband’s arrest and subsequent incarceration changed the innocence of the holiday season. The glee of the season juxtaposed with my feelings of lost was a source of contention. In those two days, I lost who I thought I was as I promised never to be a woman with a man in prison. I constantly relived the events that landed my husband on the island of misfit boys, repeatedly punishing him for stealing Christmas then and twelve years to follow. His guilt, palpable. His apologies, sincere. Yet, no matter our state of mind the other 356 days, two days before Christmas was the most difficult time of the year.

Several years ago, two days before Christmas, he called. I’d prepared another fifteen minutes from hell. I intended to make him as miserable as I. I pressed five to receive the call. Before I said hello and with all the sarcasm I could muster, I shouted three little words, “Happy Arrest Day!” He laughed and replied with three words of his own, “Another year down.” In that moment, I realized I was the one robbing us of the joy of what two days before Christmas really meant. Time was moving. I needed his three words to appreciate the true meaning of a commitment. Our efforts were not in vain, but my personal perceptions threatened us. So busy forcing my wifehood into a box set of acceptable, I didn’t recognize my actions told my husband he was unacceptable. When I stopped judging our lives and gave myself the freedom to love outside of my conformity, it was indeed a happy arrest day.

The period from November to January is naturally difficult. Heaviness hangs in the halls of the prison this time of year. It’s the season of family. Our family is miles apart. We experience a measure of melancholy. In spite of this, we look forward to two days before Christmas with all the fa-la-la the rest of the world looks upon Christmas Day. We are another year closer to finally making it to that holiday dinner. Two days before Christmas, now eight years into this sentence, we celebrate our official “new year” as a reminder of how far we have come and how much we have grown. It’s a celebration that adds joy to our world and guarantees the pain of it all is not re-gifted year after year, two days before Christmas.

 

Are the holidays difficult for you? If so, why? Have you learned to accept your reality?

 

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Sad Christmas Songs for Those With An Incarcerated Partner

While the rest of the world rejoices in the traditions of the season, for many with an incarcerated partner, this is the worst time of the year. It’s the season of family and our families are torn apart by bars, concrete walls, and endless miles.

Most Christmas songs are happy, joyful and full of glee, but there is no shortage of sad Christmas songs.

Hearing a sad Christmas song when-you-can’t-have-the-person-you-want-most-in-the-world-at-the-time-when-the-world-says-you-should-have-them, is like ripping a band-aid off an open wound. The wound we try to hide the rest of the year.

Here are my picks for top five saddest Christmas songs (guaranteed to induce a crying fit):

#5 – Someday at Christmas by Stevie Wonder

Lyrics: Someday all our dreams will come to be. Someday in a world where men are free. Maybe not in time for you and me. But someday at Christmastime. Someday at Christmastime.

This song wasn’t written about men in prison but when you speak of men being free under of the refrain of “someday,” I can’t help but think of all those incarcerated.

Listen to Someday at Christmas

#4 – Blue Christmas by Elvis

Lyrics: I’ll have a blue Christmas without you. I’ll be so blue just thinking about you. Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree. Won’t be the same dear, if you’re not here with me

Seriously, this song doesn’t need lyrics. The title is plenty.

Listen to Blue Christmas

#3 – I’ll Be Home for Christmas by Michael Buble

Lyrics: I am dreaming tonight of a place I love. Even more than I usually do. And although I know it’s a long road back. I promise you. I’ll be home for Christmas. You can count on me. Please have snow and mistletoe. And presents on the tree…..I’ll be home for Christmas. If only in my dreams.

This song was written for those in the armed forces, but that last line kills me. The whole song is a dream from the point of view of the person who longs to be home. Sound familiar?

Listen to I’ll Be Home for Christmas

#2 – All I Want for Christmas is You by Mariah Carey

Lyrics: I don’t need to hang my stocking. There upon the fireplace. Santa Claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on Christmas Day. I just want you for my own. More than you could ever know. Make my wish come true. All I want for Christmas is you.

Even with an upbeat tempo, this song tugs at the heart strings. Again, the lyrics are unnecessary.

Listen to All I Want for Christmas is You

#1 – Miss You Most (At Christmas Time) by Mariah Carey

Lyrics: The fire is burning. The room’s all aglow. Outside the December wind blows. Away in the distance
The carolers sing in the snow. Everybody’s laughing. The world is celebrating. And everyone’s so happy. Except for me tonight Because…
I miss you. Most at Christmas time. And I can’t get you. Get you off my mind. Every other season comes along and I’m all right. But then I miss you most at Christmas time

Miss You Most sums it all up for me. I absolutely miss him most at Christmas time. When I hear this, I fall to pieces.

Listen to Miss You Most (At Christmas Time)

Conclusion

Christmas is a season of love, but it’s also a season of sadness. I’m thankful to have love and to be in love. But, gosh it hurts…a lot.

 

 

 

 

What are some of your top picks for sad Christmas songs?

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Crafty Ways to Enjoy the Holidays With An Incarcerated Partner

Holidays are about traditions, rituals that are followed year to year. With your partner’s absence, you can’t experience the rituals as you knew them or believe they should be, making you susceptible to feelings of sadness and anger. You spend your time trying to make the holidays ‘normal’ instead of realizing your normal requires establishing traditions specific to your family and circumstances.

With a little planning and a shift in attitude, you don’t have to dread the holiday season nor do you have to walk around stealing joy from others. Create the spirit of the holidays by crafting the season in fun and imaginative ways.

  • Keep candles burning in honor of your partner all season (all year)
  • Ask friends and family to put your partner on their holiday card list (mailing the card is required)
  • Send a ‘holiday’ in an envelope.
    • Make a drawing/coloring of a Hanukkah menorah with the candles to be ‘lit’
    • Make a drawing/coloring of a Christmas tree and send the ‘decorations’ one day at a time. Create paper presents that have a ‘gift’ written inside.
    • Make a drawing/coloring of a Kwanzaa kinara with the candles. Celebrate the individual principles
  • Write a letter to Santa (yes, it’s okay to ask for his release)
  • Take pictures of holiday decorations at home and around town. Send to your partner.
  • Give your children gifts marked from the parent who is away
  • Send pictures of [actually] gifts bought for your partner with a message on the envelope: DO NOT OPEN UNTIL CHRISTMAS. Give partner a time he/she should open. Your partner can be a part of the unwrapping of gifts (Since their mail is more than likely opened when received, this will add to the fun)
  • Have your partner call during family time and take pictures of everyone speaking to them. Send your partner the photos. They will enjoy seeing themselves as part of the festivities.
  • Create a holiday word search or crossword puzzle as your partner’s gift. Have the clues reveal the date of your next visit
  • Make a countdown to the New Year. Send one number at a time. Shout Happy New Year in a phone call (Slow countdown required).
  • Make resolutions together

Whether it’s the first or twentieth holiday away from your partner, the feeling of missing them never goes away. Remember to have fun and with each holiday that passes you are one step closer to being together.

How do you share the holidays with your partner?

 

 

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As Seen On TV

As Seen On TV: Fifteen Minutes of Shame and the Effects on the Prisoner’s Wife/Partner

Turn on any television to see the scope of our criminal justice system – caught on tape, from the suspicion of arrest, through the question of the trial, to the reality of incarceration. Entire networks are devoted to this ultimate reality show. Viewers have a choice of seeing criminals locked up, locked down, arrested in the first forty-eight hours, DNA tested, almost getting away with it, and though rare–released. America has a twisted fascination with those who commit crimes and end up behind bars. Audiences chant the criminal’s anthem: Bad boy what you gonna do when they come for you?

Prisoners are put under the glare of a producer’s camera and subjectivity of the editor’s cut and thus a new reality is born. Alongside the four ‘R’s of incarceration, restitution, retribution, rehabilitation and redemption, our voyeuristic world has added a fifth and more dangerous ‘R’- ratings.

Criminal justice that serves as amusement for ratings sake is big business that comes with too high of a price tag; a price that robs society of its sensibility, sense of humanity, and objectivity; and a price that slowly erodes the presumption of innocence. Accusations are truth. Perception becomes reality. Even when a person prevails in the criminal justice system, ‘not guilty’ is quickly redefined as ‘not innocent.’ The images fed to the world are the worst of the worst. These images are cleverly ingrained in our subconscious minds, attaching to our sense of not-giving-a-damn while turning up the volume on fear. Women whose partners are in prison must contend with society’s negative response to their circumstances. It’s a society filtering its reaction through what has now become a true representation of men behind bars. Criminal justice that serves as amusement for ratings sake has successfully influenced our society—all men in prison are bad. Herein lies the problem for the prisoner’s wife/partner.

 

 

 

What obstacles do prisoners’ wives/partners face in terms of how we are viewed by society?

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Living your life when your partner is locked up means knowing what you can and can not control and making the most of it.

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